Baby #3 – 8 months

May
29th
2014

And just like that, I’m in my 8th month! (Today is 33 weeks, 3 days)

8 months

Time flies when you don’t post weekly pregnancy updates, doesn’t it? It’s been kind of different/weird, to not be giving the social network every detail of this pregnancy, because last time and the time before that? Well, I basically shared everything, down to the nitty-gritty-no-one-really-wants-to-know-how-much-facial-hair-you-are-growing. But it was fun, you know? Talking and sharing and connecting… and yes, complaining every waking hour of the day. That part was like, SO healthy for my mental state. :)  This time, and I know I’ve said this a gillion times, but this time it’s just SO dang different.

The past year has been kind of a season of separation from some social types of situations. A time of being more guarded with my words and really placing a lot of value on what I say and what I do. A time of maybe being a teensy bit radical in some ways. I know those close to me have noticed some stuff changing and may be kind of weirded out and concerned by the sudden nature of the shift in priorities, but honestly, so much greatness is coming of it. I know it’s just a short period of this, to really gain perspective on where I was living — in such a negative, harmful, hurtful and painful place. To step out of that for a bit, to really gain some understanding of why I was the way that I was, so when the dust settles and things get back to ‘normal’, I will be much more grounded and sure of who I am. So I won’t be so shaken up by little things that may go awry in my life. I’m feeling that change right now and it’s good. It’s really good. I’m not telling everyone to go out and do this because wow, stuff really gets stirred up! It’s a very purposeful thing for me and my family, with an end in sight. So I’ll be back here writing more regularly at some point in the near future.

With all that said about guarding my words, you guys know I haven’t had an ultrasound, right? WHEW, I went there! Guard momentarily down! Nope. Haven’t been to the doctor either. Midwife care, yes, traditional OB, no. Huh? What was that you just thought? It’s okay, gurrrl. If you want to unleash the beast, go for it… I’ve heard it all at this point! I can do this dance. I’ll even dip you and give you a kiss at the end because seriously, after hearing what I’ve heard over the past 8 months, nothing could bother me at this point. I’m not being unwise or reckless. There’s a plan and there’s safety involved and this is another very purposeful thing we’re walking out right now. Different? OHHH yes, especially for me, who once held the title of The Queen of Unnecessary Ultrasounds. But again, good things coming from it!

One small example, not going to the doctor means I haven’t weighed myself in several months. Like maybe, twice during this entire pregnancy. It’s been freeing in a lot of ways, but you know, a funny thing happens when you don’t obsess over the number on the scale — You STILL find ways criticize yourself!

Behold… the woman with a hundred chins…

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Such a sweet picture of me and Jack Boy, but I still zone in right on those rolls. Count em up! One two, skip a few, 99, 100! I’d love to say that I’m at a place where weight gain doesn’t bother me, but LEZBEREALHURR. It’s a process, people. I am enjoying eating though. I like, really, really enjoy eating. And snow cones. Something about snow cones just does it for me these days.

Oh also, has anyone seen The Business of Being Born? Or any other home birth type documentaries? Would someone please tell me WHY every woman seems to give birth topless??? Enlighten me, por favor. Yes, I will be giving birth in the comfort of my own home and it’s nothing my midwife and husband haven’t seen before, but I can’t. I assure you, I will be covering these monstrosities. My kids have seen me getting into the shower and seem to think something about my physical state is ABSOLUTELY HILARIOUS. Not that my kids will be there for the birth, I just mean there’s a common theme of “LARGE” going on with me right now and I think I’d even distract myself mid-push and start laughing if I was completely nekkid. We’ll just leave it at that.

On that delightful note, I’ll wrap things up. No wait, look at this photo of “beautiful scenery” first and get that other image out of your mind:

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The next time you hear from me, I’ll probably have this baby! Woo!

9 Comments Thus Far

  1. So happy to hear from you. I’m going through similar changes and I did midwife care as well. It was seriously so amazing. I can’t imagine going back to Dr. care after Chanah. I hope you have an amazing home birth and I’ll be praying with you!

  2. Go girl! I’m past the point of having babies (my youngest is almost 5!), but seriously, you have to do what is the absolute best for you and your family, no matter what anyone else thinks. I’ve lived in the shadow of family for my entire life, and only now, as I approach 40, am I able to really just BE who I am, and know that it really is ok. It’s ok if people like it, it’s ok if people don’t. I have to live for me and my own, which is not necessarily how others need to live.

    I’m so happy for you and your littles! #3 is a game-changer, so gird your loins…seriously, I don’t know what I’d do with 4, so, loins girded. Have fun with all 3 of them!

  3. Excited for ya! I had both my babies with the same midwife out of hospital. And yep, both topless by the end. Mostly had to do with laboring in the tub, then getting to second stage and being all GET ME OUT OF THIS F’N TUB. And then off came the wet bra and I never looked back. Loss of modesty at it’s finest.

  4. Yay! Glad to see the update. Ignore the judgemental types and do what is best for you guys. Look forward to reading more soon

  5. You are so so so so seriously funny and amazing and beautiful -chins and all ;). I love that you share your heart with us and that you have made so many hard changes in your life, for you and your family. I love the idea of no Dr – I would seriously consider it if I ever made another baby – which I have NO plans for!!! Praying for a safe and healthy delivery for you ❤️

  6. You look fabulous! I cannot wait to hear how your home birth goes! :) I’m also very anxious to hear about your life as a mama of three… I am at this point where three sounds like a wonderful idea, but then when I really think hard about it, it scares the crap out of me. Good luck, girl and all the best during this time of transformation for you and your family!

  7. eee you look so cute! and love that picture with jack, precious. can’t believe you’ll be a family of five soon. xo

  8. I’ve been impatiently waiting for an update! Glad you haven’t totally fallen off the face of the earth! Go you with your crunchy ways! I would not be up for home birth, but almost had my last baby in the car. LOL. I had always hoped to have a drug-free birth but didn’t even talk about it with family and friends because I knew they’d tell me I couldn’t. But I did! And it was awesome… once it was over, anyway. Good luck with everything!

  9. I’m so excited to hear about your pregnancy and birth this way!!!
    My pregnancy and birth was very hard and recovery was worse..so happy for you to have a healthy pregnancy and pray you have the most glorious home birth!!!

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