Hiiiiiiiiiii. It’s almost like I just woke up from a blogging nap — a little groggy, some sheet wrinkle marks on my face, getting my bearings — but I do feel nice and refreshed!
I kind of want to just blab for a few minutes about creativity, creative process and some things that have been helping me step out of my comfort zone a bit. I don’t know if anyone can identify with this process I’m in, but I would really love for you to share your own experience and give your wonderfully unique input in the comments.
I’ve been experimenting and trying some new things creatively and it’s been kind of an adventure. A few years back, I wrote this rage filled post… and then this OTHER rage filled post about Pinterest and how I felt like it was stealing my artistic voice, making me want to punch throats and burn down the Pinterest headquarters or something along those lines.
At the time, I remember feeling very frustrated with the whole Pinterest concept because I was seeing thousands upon thousands of people’s work, art, ideas and daily it left me feeling like I was a stinky fart cloud in comparison. It didn’t feel like I had much else to contribute because everyone else had already covered all the bases. So I threw a little hissy fit for a few years and lost the joy of crafting. I was very defeated. I know it sounds dramatic… it was fantastically dramatic. But it was also very revealing of a bad root in my heart.
The bottom line is: I didn’t feel like my stuff held a candle to what was already created. Looking back, I can also see that I was placing too much of my identity in the things I made. That made me feel like a copycat, a failure, and one faceless depressed crafter in a sea of flourishing artistic dolphins. I don’t know, don’t dolphins seem majestic and joyful and just straight up content with who they are? I didn’t feel that at all.
Can you remember being a kid and just being completely proud with whatever you made? My kids love to draw, paint, build legos, build forts, etc. and when they show me something they created, the joy is evident on their sweet faces. They are tapping into who they really are and in those moments, they are thriving! As their mama, I love seeing it happen. I want them to feel that joy all the time! I remember this simple memory of sitting with my friends on the playground and making daisy chain bracelets for each other. That’s a memory which takes me back to a completely pure feeling of creativity, without any comparison, without any fear, without any defeat. Just a group of little girls talking about Jonathan Taylor Thomas or whoever and making bracelets for each other. No one cared that we were all making the same exact thing — there was just joy in the process of making something.
I shared a little a while ago about how I was trying to break out of the familiar and trying something new in the form of watercolor. I have to admit, I abso-freaking-hated the things I painted at first. There was cringing, crying and crumpling of paper involved. Obviously, I took my supposed failure very personally, believing that because I didn’t make something perfect, I wasn’t worth much. But I reluctantly kept at it. Over time, I started just enjoying the simple act of painting. I’m finding that when I’m in that mindset of not performing, not striving to be perfect, not putting pressure on myself to make something unique and not comparing my stuff to everything else that’s out in the world, there’s no pressure and I actually make some pretty amazing stuff. The peaceful mindset is EVERYTHING. Being content with just being me brings that element of uniqueness to the things I make because duh, I’m the only me on the Earth. I couldn’t appreciate the great things I was already doing because I wasn’t recognizing my own value. I couldn’t see that, as simple as it is!
It is such a relief to have some of those comparative mindsets starting to be severed because I can’t truly be happy for anyone else or celebrate anyone else’s art, creativity or life victories in general if I’m constantly in that state of frustration toward myself. So yeah. That’s where I am at the moment. It’s very new and I still catch myself looking to the right and the left and have to internally smack myself a little, reminding myself that I’m in my own lane. There are no limits in my own lane because it’s only me and the open road ahead!
Simply put, these are the things that have helped me rediscover the joy in creativity:
- Remembering which activities brought me joy as a child
- Creating something new, different and challenging every once in a while
- Throwing mindsets of comparison and defeat STRAIGHT out the window
- Appreciating my unique qualities and giftings which help me to thrive right where I am!
Now I want to hear about you!
- Would you say you’re a creative person?
- What do you love to do, make, create?
- Where do you find inspiration?
- How do you overcome creative ruts?
I would think most of you would say you’re creative, even if you think it’s on a minimal level. If you’re not one to identify with that, please feel free to chime in anyway! I’d still like to hear from you in the comments about what you like to do for fun and maybe it’ll spark the rest of us to think outside the box and find new inspiration! xoxo